Title: Love Desired
Under Title: Alex's POV 1/1
Author: Sheila Limontas
E-mail: s_limontas@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: I don't own the cast of Roswell or 'To
What Can I Do To Drive Away' by John Keats
Distribution: Anyone that wants it, just let me know .
Spoilers: After Destiny
Summary: This is set after Destiny. It's Alex's
thoughts on his life and Isabel. This Fic was written
after reading 'To What Can I Do To Drive Away' by
Keats.
Category: Series Miscellaneous Poem Fics
Rating: PG-13
Feedback: Send me feedback offlist.
Author's Note: I would really love to see what
everybody thinks, so write.
Thank you Sheila
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Love Desired
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{ What can I do to drive away Remembrance from my
eyes? for they have seen, Aye, an hour ago, my
brilliant Queen!
Touch has a memory. O say, love, say, What can I do to
kill it and be free In my old liberty? When every fair
one that I saw was fair Enough to catch me in but half
a snare, Not keep me there: }
I had a simple life before I loved you. Two best pals,
Liz and Maria. I had my band and my PC. What more did
I need. I could have used a girlfriend but I not the
boyfriend type, so I had crushes to pass my time. Of
all my crushes you were the one that stood out above
them all. Isabel Evans the Ice Queen of West Roswell
High, was just plain Queen of my heart. I liked you
cause I knew that you were different from the girl you
tried to be, like there was another Isabel trying to
hide herself so she wouldn't get hurt. I knew all this
before I loved you.
{ When, howe'er poor or particolour'd things, My muse
had wings, And ever ready was to take her course
Whither I bent her force, Unintellectual, yet divine
to me;
Divine, I say!- What sea-bird o'er the sea Is a
philosopher the while he goes Winging along where the
great water throes?
How shall I do To get anew Those moulted feathers, and
so mount once more Above, above The reach of
fluttering Love, And make him cower lowly while I
soar? Shall I gulp wine? No, that is vulgarism, A
heresy and schism, Foisted into the canon law of
love;No,- wine is only sweet to happy men; More dismal
cares Seize on me unawares, }
I didn't know what was going on with your brother Max
and Liz but I didn't like it, I felt as if I was
losing my best friend. Then Maria jumped on the 'band
wagon' of secrets, that's when I felt all alone. I got
this crazy call to come to the hospital when Max was
in that accident with Liz, I couldn't believe they
wanted my blood!. Then they asked me to leave, how
could they tell me to leave after what I'd just done
and still not tell me what was going on then.
{ Where shall I learn to get my peace again? To banish
thoughts of that most hateful land, Dungeoner of my
friends, that wicked strand Where they were wreck'd
and live a wrecked life; That monstrous region, whose
dull rivers pour Ever from their sordid urns unto the
shore, Unown'd of any weedy-haired gods; Whose winds,
all zephyrless, hold scourging rods, Iced in the great
lakes, to afflict mankind; }
I was in no mood to talk to anyone, but You came to
me, Me Alexander Charles Whitman, and asked me to the
Rave!. Let me tell you know how excitedly happy I was,
but I was also suspisous why would You speak to Me,
heck why would you ask me out!. At the Rave I was
sick to my stomach when I thought you only asked me
there so you could see if told anyone about what
happened at the hospital and with the FBI. Why didn't
you just stop and tell me everything then, it would
have saved us both some heartache.
{ Whose rank-grown forests, frosted, black, and blind,
Would fright a Dryad; whose harsh herbag'd meads Make
lean and lank the starv'd ox while he feeds; There
flowers have no scent, birds no sweet song, And great
unerring Nature once seems wrong.
O, for some sunny spell To dissipate the shadows of
this hell! }
I was in a rare state of pure anger, when I end up in
jail with Liz. That's when she finally told about you,
Max and Michael. Of course I didn't believe her , but
I needed my friends so I didn't care anymore. It
wasn't until you showed me did I believe. I always
knew you were special, just not of the other worldly
kind. I knew the truth so all was right, so I thought.
My need to know everything about you grow and I wanted
to make you happy by finding out where you come from.
But at the same time I fell in love with the Isabel
within, but how could I tell you that. So I took what
you give, your friendship. Somehow I knew things with
us would change even if you thought I was to much. I
knew how to wait, I had waited that long for you I
could wait a little longer. Seems the heavens were
smiling down on me, cause as it turned out that I
didn't have to wait long, you finally were mine to
love freely.
{ Say they are gone,- with the new dawning light Steps
forth my lady bright!
O, let me once more rest My soul upon that dazzling
breast!
Let once again these aching arms be plac'd, The tender
gaolers of thy waist!
And let me feel that warm breath here and there To
spread a rapture in my very hair, }
Then I found out about the dreams you and Michael had
been having. I learned about the baby you might be
having and all air left my body, but I loved you. So
how could I not be there for you. You were everything
to me , you still are. I was glad when you felt better
after learning the 'baby' was a false alarm. I was
able to breathe again, cause there was a smile on your
face. But life is not as kind as I had thought it
could be, no happy endings for me and my Queen. Soon
you will have make a choice about what path you plan
to take with your Destiny. And I know whatever you
decide I will back you up. It's just that there is
this feeling in me, that in the long run I will have
to say good-bye to you. That is just a day I'd rather
by pass. You know I can wait Isabel, and I will even
if forever runs out.
{ O, the sweetness of the pain!
Give me those lips again!
Enough! Enough! it is enough for me To dream of thee!
}
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